who i am......

"I want someone to love me
for who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I want someone to love me
For who I am

Nothing makes sense, nothing makes sense anymore
Nothing is right, nothing is right when you're gone
I'm losing my breath, I'm losing my right to be wrong
I'm frightened to death, I'm frightened that I won't be strong

I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
but it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am


I'm shaking it off, I'm shaking off all of the pain.
Breaking my heart, breaking my heart once again

I want someone to love me
for who I am"
-NIck JOnas

_____so i may or may not still have an obsession with this song.....possibly because i feel like everyone in this world wants this....no matter who you are you are in search of this, in search of someone to love you, for who you are.....someone to fall for you with every little flaw you have, because we are all made up up of flaws, as well as great things about us....we are all striving for it....unless its already found....in my case nick jonas ;)______

BBBBUUUUSSSSSSSSSYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

so i just realized this is my last free weekend for a VERY long time.

and i'm kinda bitter about that because after tuesday my life is gonna get crazyyyyyyyyy!!!!!

but i just need to really enjoy what i will be up to performing and what not, it will be a blastie blast!

however;i'm not.

my life is getting going fasssssssssstt.....no joke! i just wanna breathe.

breathe.
breathe.
breathe.

but i dont have time. this post is pointless.

but i'm tires so what can i say?

oh hey, hows it going?

small....tall...?

"you're only as tall as your heart will let you be and you're only as small as the world will make you seem and when the going gets rough and you feel like you may fall just look on the bright side your roughly six feet tall"

i love these words.......... :)

i like to think that no matter what the world does to you.....only you can truly tear yourself down.........

what i'm thinkinnnnnnnn.......

i've never really liked liking someone. i find it uncomfortable.....trying to impress someone, it just becomes irritating......I mean not being yourself and being someone that that the person you like will like? it just become hard. so I've never REALLY liked it......i mean i didn't hate it, because you did have someone to get ready for, and you get excited to see them, so i guess give or take i really don't care, but normally refrain from it.
however, at this current moment in time. . . . . i kinda wish i liked someone.

finally.

yes folks it's true! bevlieve your friends!!!!!!!!!! i finally got my license!!!!!!!!!!! it's amazing! i honestly couldnt be more exciting!!!!!!!!!!! i love driving. it's soooooooooooo fun!!!!!! :) :) :)

My Top 8

8. STERLING KNIGHT-

some may know him as scarecrow others as chad. but to me he is known as one of my attractive husbands, simply because of his work on sonny with a chance, he def hooked me in that way......

7. ZAC EFRON-

now zac is on every girls list so add "Mr. Perfect" to mine. i mean can you really blame me?

6. KELLY BLATZ-

okay all i have to say is he is a big ol' trapppppppppp!

5. LANDON PIGG-

he for sure stole my heart in whip it. and i'm not sure why....because he isn't my average guy....oh well!

4. CHRISTOPHER INGLE-

my new obsession!!!!!!!!!!! the lead singer of nevershoutnever! well no one really likes him or thinks he is cute...however, i do i'm so into him, and his lyrics take me away.

3. LUCAS TILL-

real talk....who doesn't like him?!

2. LOGAN HENDERSON-

(right) big time rush star! so amazing! :) cant help myself. hahaha.

1. NICK JONAS...OBVI-

well i really dont think i need to explain. but i am in love with him...and were getting married. :)

Dear History Teacher.

i have a huge problem. i don't understand you. sometimes you get a little crazy and assign a project due the same week as our unit test and our take home test. now your a great teacher i've learned alot. i just think maybe your getting a little heavy here...........(on work that is) i mean you prob have some reasons behind it. i get it. but we do still have lives. and so do you, but you end up gradingggggg soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. maybe it's just me(and very other kid in your class) but maybe next time...........you could not give us so much, or not. well i have to go, and finish my 1950's comsumer project.

love, 99.78%
ps. you are a great teacher though.

photo editing.

so today i edited photos. i never had before. but i thought these were pretty cool. i may just be saying words but none the less. they are words i think. :) so if you, and by you i mean sarah, because you are the only person who reads this. if you dont like them that's fine but i just thought i'd put them on here cause i like them. hahahha and words.

why?
why is the question of forever. confused why i said yes, and why i said no.....i said yes to a decision. a decision that doesn't define me as a person doesn't tell anybody what i me or are or even could be, it is merely a simple decision. but when asked the question "why?" why. why. why, why did i say yes? i don't know. why didn't i say no? i don't know. all i know is i said yes, and i hope it's for the best but only time will tell. why. why can't i give this situation to God? why can't i just be happy with my choice? why can't everything just be perfect? because then the "why" word would be worthless.......

thank you God for all you have done. and please let your will be done.