i REALLY REALLY hate my yearbook/senior school pictures.

they are terrible.

not gonna lie....

i'm kinda dissapointed with the new m-cakes season.....

. . . . . .

at often times i hate the way my mind works......and reacts. i wish i could change it out but only on Tuesdays of course.

Can you do me a favzies and get me my Vera Wang snuggie it's brrrrr..... So excited she's coming back.

hannahtize.

okay...i can honestly say i don't know how i would get through this year if it weren't for Hannah, no but really thank you so much girl for telling me what i need to hear, and keeping me in your prayers....you will for sure be in mine too.

way better then i thought.

you know whats actually a really good CD?

SENIOR! '11

IT IS SO WEIRD! I'M SO SO OLD! hahah no but seriously being a senior is bananas........i like don't even know what to do with myself i'm constantly shouting "tay.....tay" no response...... it is ridiculous my vertigo is completely acting up.

"whatever now you're single.....playaaa"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FukzyfIqYf8&feature=channel

so i just put a W for whateves....

coming home.

i can't believe that i will be home in 5 days. where has the time gone?

i also do not believe that i am going to be a senior in 8 days....once again where has all of the time gone?

i just hate this whole "growing up" thing.

however each step of my life i am learning something new.

but back to the point i can't wait to return friday at 2 see my family at lunch and monet and sarah friday night....because i've realized so many things that i can't wait to tell money tee and sarah the shewolf!

time flys when your....alive.

it's so weird how i have been here for 8 weeks and only have 8 days left. i can't even believe it. i am so excited to go home! i can't wait! :)

my "video blog"

well it's not as good as i'd want it to be....but it does show most of the fun stuff i have done...out here in the boonies! so thats good! anyway...when i get home and hang out with monet and sarah i wanna sit down and watch it with you guys and actually add my commentary to all of the episodes...it will be like watching high school musical with commentary by kenny ortega....except not.....

so....

the other night...i just didn't come home....and didn't have my phone! it was totally okay...i just spent the night at carly's house but i completely forgot about telling the fishers.....they all did the freak!.........i couldn't even believe it!!!!!!!!!! they were just like you have to tell us these things! and i found out kathryn cried thinking i was dead somewhere...it was sad...

BUT! what i found out through all of this is that the fishers really do love me! and i'm always going to tell them where i go now...hahah.

-natmosphere

i do.

i've realized how many people i love to death! well in my country that is! ;)

Josh Bell.

this kind of looks like josh bell...

except it's Adam Young.

another update.

well i've been here for 5 weeks and 4 to go so i passed the half way point with only poison ivy scars to prove it.

well after a big kat and nat fight on friday night saturday morning came....

saturday was SO FUN. we lived the dream out here so my day consisted of...

first i woke up and went to work, my boss at the beginning of the summer said how all the lifeguards are like a family and i just thought she was crazy. BUT, it wasn't until yesterday that i realized that i do care about all of these people and they care about me too! so at work they realized something was wrong with me so i vented to them about the fight and they all listened and cared. then work got off we went to lunch and then hung out and then we worked again. work was fun i suppose no one drowned so that's a plus then i got off of work and had a 4 hour break before we reopened.

so we all had dinner then found a bunch of random staffers and played hide n' go seek all over the camp it was a blast. now you may question yourself about that considering it is merely a game for 8 year olds but you are wrong. its was so fu then i work the night shift and night shifts are my favorite....

after work me and my good friend emily went to the staff leaders house and ate ice pops then i drove home talked to reagan and carly and went to sleep.

now this day seems incredibly ordinary in camp life but it hasn't been for me until yesterday. and i loved every second of it.

minus a couple of hugs from behind it would have been the most excellent days :)

that's all for now! :)

i've gotten better at hugging i swear.

sometimes adam puts this on my wall.

for monet.

hey monet hey money.

i miss you! you're so much like my big brother it's crazy.

i never really thought we were so close until i came out here...then i realized we are.

so thank you for always being there for me.

and i promise i won't be like you "08ers" and i'll call you in my life.

hope your trip was amazing.

see you in 4 weeks.

-Mrs. Jonas.

weird.....

it's odd how i'm doing some of the coolest things and going to some beautiful east coast places....

alone.

i can't be tamed.....or can i?

Alright...so this cd I'm really indecisive about......i mean i totally love jamin to it and, when i get home, driving around with it with the top down and listening to it will be grand! howevezies.....i feel like she is gonna regret it. alright if i was a little 9 yr. old girl who LOVED hannah montana/miley cyrus and this album came out i would want it.....but if i was that little girl's parent i would do the freak! BUT! me and miley are the same age were basically the same person except for the fact that i'm famous and rich and in front of everyone and she's just kinda a no one in a crazy small town...other then that were the same, so ive grown up with her.......i can normally relate to her music, but now, a 9 yr. old girl.......cant.

time....

well i've been here for 21 days now and i have 43 left...... i'm about one third of the way done......wow. it's weird it's gone so fast and yet so slow.

i do.

yeah. I LIKE ROBOTS!!!!!!!!!!

lifzies.

i think there are some people in life that are awesome but they will never know it :) and i'm okay with that.

a word TO SHEWOLF.

hey girl hey! i MISS YOU.....I MISS YOUR SMILE...hahahah okay but in all seriousness...i miss ya!

i never really realized how close we were until i left!

so wherever you are......your still my best little shewolf friend!

-aweooooooooooo.

tttoooodddaaaaayyyyy....

today is my day off and I'm planing on adventuring in the woods alone with nothing but a camera and see what happens and what i find!

it's kinda hard.

today is not the best day, you see i couldn't go to church with the family because i had to work....seriously! and i'm pretty sure a few of my friends have already replaced me, now two of them i expected and the other i really never thought she would do that.......it's fathers day and i'm not with my dad!

Maryland.

well...it is just the beginning. i have been here for about 4 days and it feels long and I'm slowly getting used to it. it's odd because you never realize things about yourself or your family until your living with a different family. or just putting yourself in a different setting. i truly am blessed living with the fishers. i enjoy them, and the thoughts the family has, i talk about Jesus with mark, cook with Mrs. Lori, talk about Justin Beiber with Jordan (and how he's a trap), and talk about abso or as kat would say "abzies" making fun of me of course) everything with KATHRYN. i really am enjoying myself. but i am somewhat shy when it comes to sandy cove. i think for some reason, being with new people in a work setting where they have all already "bonded" is complicated. however, i am up to the challenge, i hope that soon i will be able to feel comfortably with all of the guards.

until next time i am signing out. hope you enjoyed the mini update.

heartzies, natalie jonas.

today.

today i founf out...that "owl city" boy isn't cool....AT ALL. welll good thing i never talked to him...............................................i guess.

real.

i leave in a few days and i can't believe it, i'm gonna be away from everyone for two whole months....it's gonna be insane. and i hope i can handle it.

SERIOUSLIY?

can't even express the drama....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....................................every function.

owl city boy :)

there is this boy and i'm not sure what to do.....because i'm to scared to talk to him....but i like him. you see he looks exactly like the boy to the left but blond hair and much younger....he wears TOMS and rocks his owl city shirts all the time which is why i gave him the name of owl city boy....the reason i put both of these pictures up is because he has the same vibe as the real owl city guy(adam young). okay now you might ask me...why haven't you talked to him yet...? and its because in my mind owl city boy is so cool..........that i'm afraid that he isn't gonna be as cool in real life............its just crazy cakes....i guess i should talk to him...but i'm just not sure if it's right...i was gonna give up....but i can't decide...thoughts? give up? keep thinking?

homeworks putting me to sleep pr am i just tired?....both.

okay..............i'm tired and tired of papers. but like for realzies i'm trying to write a research paper on prohibition...............but i'm literally falling asleep typing it.................i cant stay awake..................goodnight?

i guess?

i think it's okay to be furious with people you love......because stuff happens.......life happens.............high school happens............and sometimes those people who were your bast friends are stupid.......so it is okay to be mad, because it shows how you still care about them....i guess?

speghetti = happiness...wait thats not right is it?

today i wanted into my sixth period and said to my teacher......"i'm dropping out of high school" and she looked at me in astonishment thinking i was serious i then explained to her that i'm very fead up with school and how teachers are getting crazy. we kept talking and she asked what my favorite food was and i said "spaghetti" and she said, "ask your mom the make that for you and maybe then you will feel a little better".

so i'm gonna give it a try, anyone care to join me?

teenagers

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH......................that's all that i need to day about that.

the revisied cool list.

the list.
#the best friend a girl could EVERRRR have: kathryn fisher.
#my sister and best friend: jennifer taylor.
#the best sisters ever: lauren, megan, karley maloney .
#britney/Jesus: monet stewart.
#shewolf: Sarah Schumacher.
#should reallly be my big sister: jeannemarie VanZyle.
#good funny friend: Josh Gillespie.
#my best school friend: molly hampton.
#coolest cousins ever: trent and brooke kay.
#best life talks: Corey Schwarts.

happy monet and sarah? :)

the "cool" list.

1. kathryn fisher.
2. jennifer taylor.
3. lauren, megan, karley maloney .
4. monet stewart.
5. Sarah Schumacher.
6. jeannemarie VanZyle.
7. Josh Gillespie.
8. molly hampton.
9. trent and brooke kay.
10. Corey Schwarts.

that's right folks embrace it.....that's my current cool list.......... :)
i dont think any of them need an emplation....they are all just that awesome. :)))))

who i am......

"I want someone to love me
for who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I want someone to love me
For who I am

Nothing makes sense, nothing makes sense anymore
Nothing is right, nothing is right when you're gone
I'm losing my breath, I'm losing my right to be wrong
I'm frightened to death, I'm frightened that I won't be strong

I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
but it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am


I'm shaking it off, I'm shaking off all of the pain.
Breaking my heart, breaking my heart once again

I want someone to love me
for who I am"
-NIck JOnas

_____so i may or may not still have an obsession with this song.....possibly because i feel like everyone in this world wants this....no matter who you are you are in search of this, in search of someone to love you, for who you are.....someone to fall for you with every little flaw you have, because we are all made up up of flaws, as well as great things about us....we are all striving for it....unless its already found....in my case nick jonas ;)______

BBBBUUUUSSSSSSSSSYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

so i just realized this is my last free weekend for a VERY long time.

and i'm kinda bitter about that because after tuesday my life is gonna get crazyyyyyyyyy!!!!!

but i just need to really enjoy what i will be up to performing and what not, it will be a blastie blast!

however;i'm not.

my life is getting going fasssssssssstt.....no joke! i just wanna breathe.

breathe.
breathe.
breathe.

but i dont have time. this post is pointless.

but i'm tires so what can i say?

oh hey, hows it going?

small....tall...?

"you're only as tall as your heart will let you be and you're only as small as the world will make you seem and when the going gets rough and you feel like you may fall just look on the bright side your roughly six feet tall"

i love these words.......... :)

i like to think that no matter what the world does to you.....only you can truly tear yourself down.........

what i'm thinkinnnnnnnn.......

i've never really liked liking someone. i find it uncomfortable.....trying to impress someone, it just becomes irritating......I mean not being yourself and being someone that that the person you like will like? it just become hard. so I've never REALLY liked it......i mean i didn't hate it, because you did have someone to get ready for, and you get excited to see them, so i guess give or take i really don't care, but normally refrain from it.
however, at this current moment in time. . . . . i kinda wish i liked someone.

finally.

yes folks it's true! bevlieve your friends!!!!!!!!!! i finally got my license!!!!!!!!!!! it's amazing! i honestly couldnt be more exciting!!!!!!!!!!! i love driving. it's soooooooooooo fun!!!!!! :) :) :)

My Top 8

8. STERLING KNIGHT-

some may know him as scarecrow others as chad. but to me he is known as one of my attractive husbands, simply because of his work on sonny with a chance, he def hooked me in that way......

7. ZAC EFRON-

now zac is on every girls list so add "Mr. Perfect" to mine. i mean can you really blame me?

6. KELLY BLATZ-

okay all i have to say is he is a big ol' trapppppppppp!

5. LANDON PIGG-

he for sure stole my heart in whip it. and i'm not sure why....because he isn't my average guy....oh well!

4. CHRISTOPHER INGLE-

my new obsession!!!!!!!!!!! the lead singer of nevershoutnever! well no one really likes him or thinks he is cute...however, i do i'm so into him, and his lyrics take me away.

3. LUCAS TILL-

real talk....who doesn't like him?!

2. LOGAN HENDERSON-

(right) big time rush star! so amazing! :) cant help myself. hahaha.

1. NICK JONAS...OBVI-

well i really dont think i need to explain. but i am in love with him...and were getting married. :)

Dear History Teacher.

i have a huge problem. i don't understand you. sometimes you get a little crazy and assign a project due the same week as our unit test and our take home test. now your a great teacher i've learned alot. i just think maybe your getting a little heavy here...........(on work that is) i mean you prob have some reasons behind it. i get it. but we do still have lives. and so do you, but you end up gradingggggg soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. maybe it's just me(and very other kid in your class) but maybe next time...........you could not give us so much, or not. well i have to go, and finish my 1950's comsumer project.

love, 99.78%
ps. you are a great teacher though.

photo editing.

so today i edited photos. i never had before. but i thought these were pretty cool. i may just be saying words but none the less. they are words i think. :) so if you, and by you i mean sarah, because you are the only person who reads this. if you dont like them that's fine but i just thought i'd put them on here cause i like them. hahahha and words.

why?
why is the question of forever. confused why i said yes, and why i said no.....i said yes to a decision. a decision that doesn't define me as a person doesn't tell anybody what i me or are or even could be, it is merely a simple decision. but when asked the question "why?" why. why. why, why did i say yes? i don't know. why didn't i say no? i don't know. all i know is i said yes, and i hope it's for the best but only time will tell. why. why can't i give this situation to God? why can't i just be happy with my choice? why can't everything just be perfect? because then the "why" word would be worthless.......

thank you God for all you have done. and please let your will be done.

and today was a day just like any other....

today, i woke up to my alarm which of course was blasting "Last time around" by nick jonas....so i lay in my bed listened to the whole song then sat up and turned my alarm off. i then walked into the bathroom and started brushing my teeth, however it was weird because instead of my toothpaste tasting like crest, it tasted like Windex.....now one may question one's self about that. but i left myself in curiosity. i got ready stole a shirt from my sisters closet, did hair got breakfast, and out the door. i get to school get out an talk to my friend then the bell rings and i go to 1st period. then 2nd. then 3rd. then lunch....mmmmmmmm. then 4th. then chem... :/. finally 6th. the bell rings i walk to my car and drive to circus.

so what do i get from all this?
my same everyday routine?
well all i can say is....

it must be Tuesday.....

there the same thing right?

today in the car on the radio the man said, "to bad it's the last season of 24" and my dad said "yeah......that's the pits it's 24s last season" and i of course said, "it's hannah montana's last season too!" then my dad responds with, "maybe there connected". so maybe they are? just as hannah is about to go on stage on the last episode everything changes when the whole cast of 24 appears and tries to save the world....again. or maybe not. think what you want.

this is confusing.....i'm lost.

love is on it's way.

dear nick jonas,
you are amazing....i really love you and your words....one day we will get married. all your best men will wear skinny jeans and skinny ties, and my maid of honor will be corey s. but my briadsmaids will wear red dresses and high heels. and we will be burnin' up. i cant wait. and its gonna happen.

however, i want my proposal to happen in starbucks or simply on a row at target, just be like "honey do you want honey in your coffee, ps will you marry be?" that's it. but you seem like a "flashy proposal" kinda guy. so i'll change for you. if you can change for me?

xoxo, natalie jonas

Very Mary Kate you came through.

well mk....you were amazing for the first 8 episodes then you decided to "get crazy". inappropriate. now on your 10Th episode, you came through. you made me laugh again. thanks you. i hope you keep coming through.....because you send joy to my heart.

my blog.

well...i have offically joined the blogesphere....where i dont think anybody will read this. and i am fine with that! i live, eat, sleep, school, stress, pray, circus, and breathe and that's what this blog will be about but mainly just life......